Monday, January 28, 2008

I'm sitting in Koch Hall

I'm sitting in Koch Hall at Wittenberg University waiting for an art lecture to start and I'm bored out of my mind.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Government Cheese

The US Congress is finalizing an economic stimulus package and I'd just like to say:

They are NOT giving you money! The money you may get is YOUR money to start with!

I've heard from like 30 people now thinking the government is giving you free money. It's a tax rebate, just like last time. So if you get $300, next year when you file your tax returns that money will be deducted from your return.

Okay, I just had to write that down and get it out of my system.

I wont even go into how we are so far into debt that really the only money we are using to keep this stupid fake economy afloat is money from China.

Random Thoughts

I've been super busy as of late ramping up for Hamlet rehearsals. They are in full swing now and going well. Last night was awesome and I am really starting to love the idea of being Claudius. There is something very satisfying about playing a king and an evil one at that. Not that Claudius is really evil, but he's definitely not a good guy.

Oh and in case you dont live near me or by some weird twist of fate you dont have nerve endings in your sking - IT'S STINKIN' COLD OUTSIDE! I mention this because I have to go outside and smoke. I got a prescription for Chantix to stop smoking but my insurance doesnt cover it (which is odd in itself) and it costs $130+ a month. A little less than actually smoking. I didnt get it filled, but now I am really thinking I should. I need to quit anyway and it would be nice to be free of it again.

And in case you didnt know, I finally broke down and setup a MySpace. *sigh* I really dont like that place, but since everyone uses it - it really is the best way to keep in touch with all the people I know.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Your journey's been etched on your skin

Well the final auditions have come and gone. And I was offered the part of Hamlet.

That was so great to even be thought of as a possibility to play that part and then to actually be chosen was amazing and a very difficult thing. I should have been totally excited, but I didnt want it for various reasons.

Hamlet is on a slow descent into madness, he's depressed and fights within himself. He has fits of rage and moments of such deep considerations of life and his own death that almost incapacitate him. I think the only reason I was able to do well at the part during auditions was that I have been thru the same stuff and just tapped into that and brought it out. Funny thing is that your brain really doesnt know that you are acting and your portrayed emotions actually start to take hold. After the previous audition (where I did the "To be" speech), I was totally emotionally wiped out.

The "To be" speech is about why people choose to live instead of kill themselves and whether or not Hamlet would be better off killing himself and when he cant bring himself to do it he concludes that he's a coward. I was able to stand in front of a room of about 20 people and pick that scab and bleed for them. I felt like such a fraud though. The words were Hamlet's but the feelings were mine and where they thought it a good "act", it was no act. It was me and all my demons coming out. Demons best left in the past and ignored. An actor didnt stand there mimicking those feelings, Cory stood there and became depressed and helpless and lost. Cory stood there and cursed his own cowardice and feebleness. Cory stood there and begged for a release from life and how sweet that would be. Cory used to feel that way, but not now and I dont want to go back to that place.

I explained all these concerns to the director and felt like I was disappointing her so much. Which I hate to disappoint and tell people "no". She lobbied hard to get me to like Hamlet and to realize I dont have to go that deep and no matter how deep I go I can come back. And good actors choose to expose and bare their soul like that to the world and mediocre or bad actors choose to either not do that or cant go there. If that's the scale, then I guess I'm just not a good actor. I guess I could see if I had been doing this for years and was quite skilled at this, but I'm not ... hell I'm just barely comfortable with being around this many people again, let alone ripping myself apart for strangers.

So this left her scrambling to figure out how the casting was going to fall. I actually couldnt be Hamlet for another reason too and that's my bad eye. I dont have much in the way of depth perception and the sword fight scenes could be very dangerous especially when we're using real 4 foot long broadswords (not edged but still could be very lethal). So that put the final nail in all of that.

With all that being said and not running away and hiding at home like I wanted to do, I stayed and stuck it out and ended up with the part of Claudius. Which is the main bad guy of the play and quiet the prick. Prick I can do. And there's no sword fights for him. He's a political and scheming and the new king and has a glorious death scene at the end. So this should prove to be very interesting. Except the person I "took" the part of Claudius from probably is a little miffed about it, but he ended up with Hamlet, so he cant complain too much. Plus it should be very interesting playing his enemy in all of this. I think we will do well for each other being opposite each other like that.

Oh and I found out we are doing 9 shows!

Friday, April 11th (Evening)
Saturday, April 12th (Evening)

Monday, April 14th (Daytime)
Tuesday, April 15th (Daytime)
Wednesday, April 16th (Daytime)
Thursday, April 17th (Daytime)
Friday, April 18th (Evening)
Saturday, April 19th (Evening)
Sunday, April 20th (Evening)

There's much work ahead ...

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Oh what a rogue and peasant slave he is ...

Well auditions went well last night. The other guys reading for Hamlet were really on their game and I felt a bit out of my league in some respects.

The reading of my "To be" speech seemed a little anti-climatic. I dont know what I was expecting to happen, it was just sort of like ... over too fast. That and I got so roped up in the emotion of it I had a hard time breaking out of it again. Something that troubles me as I dont want to depress myself so much I run around moping for months on end or worse. :P

At any rate, I've given it some thought and today when I meet with the director for a one-on-one, I'm going to gracefully bow out of the running for the role of Hamlet. While a challenge, yes, - that's the only thing that interests me about the role. I find Hamlet a detestable, spoiled, arrogant, jerk and have not been able to find one thing about him I like about him. And since part of playing him is to have the audience like him to an extent I think my performance would be sullied by how I view him and I would make them hate me, as I hate him.

I identify and like the part of Laertes much more and will ask to play he. Not that I think I could simply ask and it be granted as there are other good Laertes as well, but ask to be in the running for that part instead of Hamlet.

So we'll see how that goes tonight. Plus Laertes is a bit smaller part so then I can work on the sets and do the construction that needs done. Oh and Laertes gets to kill Hamlet, so that will be fun too. :)

Monday, January 14, 2008

To be or not to be ...

Auditions for Hamlet have started and I'm surprised by the small turn out. All my friends are back from the fall production Monster (well with some exceptions) so that's great, but very few new people.

At any rate, the first night was great. My nephew Jordan went with me and tried out for different parts. He got along great and even though he was a little shy and quiet he got right up there and tried out. I was proud of him for that. I read for a few different parts on Thursday night but then on Friday night I read entirely just for the part of Hamlet.

I felt a bit unsure in parts, whether I was good or bad or what. But everyone seemed to like what I did. It will be tough though because the few other guys reading are great at what they do too. This seems to be the one thing I dont like about the theater is the competition and the chances of someone getting their feelings hurt.

At any rate, I had an awesome audition scene with my friend Rachel that she thought was great and literally gave me chills. We really went for it and she got a wonderful, and well deserved compliment from the director afterwards.

Tomorrow night is another audition and for this one the director wanted the people reading for Hamlet to memorize a speech of some 30 lines and get familiar with another small speech. Well I didnt know I had it in me, but I memorized both in the span of two days. In the car, at work, while smoking, I worked it and got them both down. So now I can recite the "To be or not to be" speech from memory and the other one as well.

I really hope I get the part of Hamlet, because the thrill of doing this is amazing on so many levels. However I am scared about ALL the memorization that needs done. But I'll never know unless I try and in a month if I cant remember a "hawk from a hand saw" then they still have a chance to can me and get someone else. haha

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Update on my 360

Well I received my third XBOX 360 back yesterday from the repair center and since I sent in a Core unit, they sent me back another Core unit. Ugh.

This one works fine and the Hitachi DVD Drive is a lot quieter than the last one while it's spinning ... HOWEVER - it makes a horrible screeching noise. It sounds like it happens as the laser is traveling and parking.

So I called the XBOX repair center and talked to an agent and he went thru his script about how the 360 makes some noise from the optical drive and fans, etc. and I explained my situation to him and told him I didnt want this system. He said he could do an RMA on it, but he said if the repair center cant find something wrong I will either get this one back or another Core unit replacement.

I told him this wasnt acceptable, as I was tired of getting the 2 year old loud and broken DVD Drives back and I wanted to be sure I got some new hardware. So I asked to speak with a supervisor and apparently they are all super busy so I had to schedule a callback for today between 2pm and 4pm. So here I sit waiting for their call.

In the meantime I've confirmed that the Gamestop in a nearby town has Arcade units that according to probably has the new super quiet BENQ drive in it. And they have an HDMI port. I havent confirmed if they have the new Falcon chips on them or not. Only trouble there is that Gamestop will only give me $130 on my trade-in on my Core unit. *sigh* So depending on what the XBOX Supervisor says, I might just go over to Gamestop and trade my unit in and a bunch of old games, etc and just buy me an Arcade unit that they have.

Happy 2008!!!

Happy 2008!!!